Fighting for Passion

Stop making people feel bad for liking things that make them happy.

I read this today on a friend’s facebook post. For me it seems to hit so very close to home. This past fall I made the decision to re-enter my past major in college.  Dance Performance.  Ever since doing that, I have had to defend that decision to almost everyone I speak to about it. Yes I am over weight, yes I am much older than the typical dancer and I’m just entering the field, yes it’s a difficult field to enter into and even less lucrative.

So what? I love this.  I want this. Every single day I fight a battle with myself just to go to class – I run the previously mentioned issues through my mind, in addition to ridicule from the outside world, and my personal fear that I will fail.  I am too fat, I am too old, I am too weak, I have too far to go. I don’t care.

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I want this. Nothing else has made me feel this happy I know this is what I am supposed to do. Recently I was cast as a understudy in a show that my school is currently performing, I get the privilege to dance a couple of pieces and I can *honestly* say that nothing compares to the feel I get when I am performing in front of an audience and those lights hit me. Nothing.

I know that I have a handicap in comparison to my peers, so I have begun to do extra training and cross training on my own. I refuse to move on to grad school in poor shape and unable to keep up with my peers! Nothing worth it is easy and this is no exception. That is why I know this is where I am supposed to be.

 

xoxo

 

Me